If I’m Being Honest, I’m Glad You Picked Her

August 15, 2018

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Maybe I was upset at first,
maybe I questioned myself,
maybe I wanted revenge —
I wanted to show you I’m better.

But now that some time has passed
Im glad you picked her.
Im glad I wasnt your first choice.
Im glad you let me go.

Because that means I dont have to suffer.
I dont have to wonder who youre with.
I dont have to believe your lies.
I dont have to fight so hard for your attention.

I can go to sleep knowing Im not being fooled,
youre not playing games with me,
youre not cheating on me,
youre not making me cry.

Because its only a matter of time
before you break her heart.
Its only a matter of time

Its not a competition for me anymore,
she didnt win and I didnt lose.
Its all
because youre not looking for forever.

So if Im being honest, Im glad it wasnt me.
Im glad I wasnt your choice.
Im glad you didnt pick me for another heartbreak.
Im glad I finally understood why never worked out.

Because it shows me that its pointless,
wanting to be loved by someone who doesnt care,
trying to win someone who doesnt mind losing you,
crying over someone who doesnt try to make you smile.

Its not about her anymore,
even if you think she’s better than me.
Its about me now
and who thinks Im the for him.

Rania Naim is a poet and author of the new book , available here.

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